SATURDAY NIGHT LIVE ON THE COCK
I wanted to share a letter that was written about Saturday Night Live on the Cock by one of the chatters. Bookie took the time to write this letter and express his delight about My new show on Saturday nights. I have to say that I’m absolutely loving this show, as the kinksters can actually call in and participate live. If you haven’t had the chance to make it to the show you need to! It’s so much fun. If you have skype and a microphone you can be live on the air with this phone sex Mistress and other chatters! It starts at 11pm EST at www.communitykink.com . I would love to see you there!
Bookie thank you for the wonderful letter, it means a lot to Mistress!
Aaron here. I want to express a few words, remember this is me, so a few words means the equivalent of a short synopses of “War and Peace”, about these Saturday night shows, and what they mean to me in a quiet way.
These shows are special for me, that is why I try to make time for them in my personal schedule, to be able to learn from the insight we get from the folks participating be it either a Milady or a chatter. You create an atmosphere where as Milady Gemma phrases it the “the mantle of the Mistress” is taken off and put aside. This is a very keen and apt description. The same goes for the “chatter” as well, true the distinctions are there and still understood, but there is no physical demarcation, it is relaxed and casual, one does not have to be a certain height or weight to enjoy and participate in this amusement park known as “Saturday Night with Milady Ann”.
Ann what you have created is an experience of an “Evening with Friends”. For a lack of better term the “structured” portion of the evening with the music ,”Q & A”, just whets one’s appetite for what is to follow, and even mentioning the word “structured” is tenuous at best. The only real foundation is that we know there is going to be another question at some point after the swell of laughter has ebbed, before the next wave of merriment burst forth from another response from one of the questions you posed.
The atmosphere is infectious of good humor and good times, where the hair is let down, where a rose bud of individuality feels safe and comfortable to shyly, then with with gradual confidence to open up to let others see the beauty and the delicate intricacy of the petals, that creates the flower of the chatter, for so far it has been emphasized on the chatters. “all I know is this”… ohh come on, you knowing me, you knew I was going to slide that phrase in here at some point, see I lulled you a bit with the thoughtful observations and then…”zinnng”… Gotcha.
Seriously however, with sincerity, what I do know though is that this takes great consideration as a person, not as a Milady, Mistress, nor a Domme. This is an unselfish, caring, act of an individual. For the sake of argument the mantle descriptions I just mentioned is respectfully dandelion fluff that that is gently lifted away with a slight puff of breathe from one’s lips or a slight breeze. That is for another place, another time, but not for the “Saturday Night with Milady Ann”. It is Ann who does this, it is “her” that works hard, to give up time, and effort to provide this atmosphere of safe intimacy in the platonic sense, of laughter, honest sincerity, and yes of depth.
The atmosphere is casual and cozy, maybe a coffee shop, or a relaxed
evening around a kitchen table or a living room with cups of coffee. Where else will I feel safe and comfortable enough to talk about some of the topics that are put forth or that I venture to put my 2 cents in. Yes we have witnessed the occasional chatter goofiness that I can create. Last night was a prime example. But the amazing thing it is all good, and it does not stop me from keep trying. There are times when I say something that makes perfect logical sense to me and it is in the realm of the conversation, and everybody else just stops, looks and either goes “huh”.. what the hell did he just say ?”, or if in super casual.. “WTF??”. I call the ensuing silence “Jake’s Crickets” one of my various nicknames “Jake” from high school football and continued in archaeology.
In other occasions I will then become silent or try too hard to over compensate for what I just said, either way it makes the awkward moment longer than necessary. Last night it happened a couple of times where basically “ShinyKnob” on Skype had to interrupt and ask what the other folks in chat and the others on Skype: Kindle, Milady Ann, Kurt, and Milady Alexis were thinking…”dude you got to repeat that, we do not get it it.” And it was not because he is from Australia, and I was using slang. I do this, sometimes I get better at it sometimes I do not and it pops up more frequently than I would like. Last night was a prime example. After one such comment Kindle commented “LDW Crickets”.
Everybody laughed, including me, it was a funny as hell observation. Kindle did not say it to be mean, he said it in a sense “hey Bookie we get ya, it is cool, but what did you mean” And I kept going, I will and did make a slight self deprecating humorous comment about myself, for a laugh and we went on. I did not become silent, took myself off Skype to run and hide trust me it can be rather embarrassing sometimes. I kept going after taking a deep breathe, and it was all good.
Ally… Ann creates a jovial atmosphere where one can grow through both laughter and depth. Again some of the comments are uncomfortable to hear, but that is me, and things I need to work on, for example during my interview Ann asked me if I would ever participate in some type of fashion of a girl / on Girl situation, without pausing nor hesitation I said no, now there was a overall slight pause but we went on smoothly. Both her and you know my past, of the things that occurred, and that subject is sometimes still hard for me. To be very honest, physically most likely my body will react in the appropriate sexual manner, but afterwords emotionally, not so well. The other folks do not know why I said no, and they will not know, unless I mention it to them. If my ex / gf did not have that reason for leaving me for another woman, when I was going to propose, sure a different response, but that is a part of me.
Was I surprised by the question, yes it caught me off guard, was I upset, Hell no! did she try to sandbag me, or trip me up, again hell no!, and I will defend her and that exact question she gave to me, no matter who they are, and that is a simple fact. Ally she let me express myself in my own way, in my own words, even it was a one word answer, I will ever be thankful for that, heck I know I am in the minority when it comes to that scenario for the G/G.
Ally I do not know what adjectives to use here, I really do not, and not being over dramatic, or passionate. But dang it, the prominent, overall encompassing aspect Ally, is that Ann through her kindness of Who she is and not What she is, went on with the questions, and had another question that gave me the room to make a “funny” to get the laughter back, do you know how amazing that is?.
Another example is last night one of those crazy, silly late night free flowing conversations took place. The subject back hair. the person of interest, you guessed it, me. The instigator of such a topic – ShinyKnob. He basically wanted to know why I created the nickname “Bookie Wookie” well I am fuzzy and it is another self conscience issue I let get better of me. But in here Ally, in LDW, and in Ann’s show it is ok to be unique and to talk about it and be comfortable about it. As I explained the reasons why to Shiny knob, we got into a deep sincere conversation about male back hair, even Kurt chimed in, even though to be honest he was trying desperately to bring the topic back to the sexy body descriptions of Ann and Alexis.
It did not happen as quickly as Kurt wanted it too I think to his dismay. There were some great deep comments regarding body size and image issues, of a what a guy thinks and what a woman thinks, that there is more to a person than looks and how sometimes that is lost. OK I admit it was a true late nite Oprah moment. At one point I asked Ann straight out that when she was creating this show did she ever think in the back of her mind in the quiet moments, that if she had an inkling that topics like this would ever come up at all… she paused, we paused and she replied I think “hell no” we all busted up. As kindle again aptly described the “LDW late night men’s back hair club.”
This year has not been a good one, the whole thing with potentially being laid off, and leaving Detroit for home, it came that close, internal work issues are also nuts, plus finding out a week or so again we have to go through branch closings for the library, and the branch I work with is going to be affected in some way. So we get to go through this again through September and into late October before the final decisions are made. Ann’s show has helped me through the processing of these last few weeks, to take a time out and to enjoy the friends and the camaraderie that is ever present in LDW.
I am writing this letter for the simple reason that Ann’s shows, particularly this one on a Saturday night creates a place where I can come to and “de-stress” from the weeks craziness. It is not a crutch per se, but a place where I can go to a friends kitchen table or a coffee shop and laugh and learn and have a good time. Ally I deeply cherish those times and moments. Of course it is the same is for the other radio shows, as well, but each one is unique, the timing of day and time for me, for “Saturday Night with Milady Ann” it is perfect for me. I feel comfortable to be able to express myself and thoughts, no matter how goofy, or awkward, either in chat, or on Skype when she gives the ok to do so, and there is support from you Ann, and the other chatters both on Skype and in the room, there might be respectful disagreements of perspective, but there is still support. Thank you for that Ann, it is truly a selfless act of friendship and caring that manifested itself with your gentle guidance and encouragement of making “Saturday Night with Milady Ann” what it is.
For you see Ally, Ann has created a fun filled relaxed haven where it is OK to participate and express in a non judgmental group setting and be positive about one’s self, with no worries or cares… now how cool is that?
- Aaron
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